Last Time: Discipline

The big area of my life that still lacks discipline: eating.  Now I can lose weight with the best of you.  Give me a diet and a motivation goal and I can do it.

First time I lost weight was in middle school - we called it junior high.  I had stopped growing but kept eating like I still needed fuel to extend my legs and arms.  I don't remember what I lost, but I do remember weighing 110 at my goal.  I haven't seen that number on the scale in years.

In college - freshman year I went on a 5 day fast - so stupid and freshmany of me.  I remember weighing 114 at the end.  That was the last time I saw that number.

When I fell in love with my disciplined man, I lost weight without even trying - that is how I knew I was in love.  I weighed 118 at my wedding.  That number is long gone too.

Between my two babies, I lost a ton of weight to go back to my college 10 year reunion.  I was  Ms. Weight Watchers - even attaining lifetime status -  weighing 120.  Do you notice these numbers keep going up - little by little.  

Since then it has been a merry-go-round .  I'm either on a diet heading for a goal, or I'm eating everything I want to with no caution until my clothes get tight, then I'm back to Weight Watchers or something similar.  It seems I think that once I lose the weight I can go back to my old habits and it will magically stay off. Round and round I go (and grow).

This summer, I lost 8.5 pounds in 2 months with the help of a sports nutritionists. (Notice I'm not giving specific weight numbers anymore).  She was so impressed with my efforts, and so was I .  Since I left her office a month ago, I haven't stopped celebrating.  Now I have not gained back much - honesty I'm too scared to get on the scales, but my clothes still fit.  But I go back to her one week from today.  So of course, my accountability/goal motivation kicks in and I'm back to being good or "on the plan".

But here is what I'm trying to learn and implement at my ripe old age of 54.  I've got to make a real change.  It's time. I've been at this for 40 years. I've got to learn how  continue to use the tools I used to lose weight to keep it off.  

This post is at its max - so tomorrow permanent weight loss tools tomorrow.
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